Burnout ➡️ Involuntary Retirement

Ok, late 2021 into early 2022 was a traumatic time for me.

There were c**vd vx injuries, s*xu@l abuse memories, moving homes, isolation, unraveling and much more in between.

Involuntary retirement incoming…

I spent a two year period HEALING which basically meant doing anything that didn’t involve serving other people at the expense of myself.

God, it was edgy.

All I’d ever known was living for everyone and everything but me, even though I…

🧘🏻‍♀️ Meditated daily
✍🏼 Journaled
🧘🏻 Had a disciplined yoga practice
🍺 Didn’t drink
🥩 Ate well
🌳 Spent time in nature

When I felt replenished, I gave it all away.

To my clients
To anyone that “needed me”

When I felt flat, I’d hide in my house, binge watch TV & eat snacks bc I was so depleted and the thought of anyone having ‘access’ to me made me melt.

It definitely caught up to me and I needed to pour back into myself. It’s been a journey of self pouring ever since.

This was all a byproduct of not knowing that having my emotional needs met, matters.

I genuinely never felt like I mattered

Until I spent 2022 getting to know the Brooke that really wanted to matter. She wanted nourishment, care, joy, play, adventure, fun and connection.

As cheesy at it is, I needed to listen to my inner child, that little girl that lives within me.

She got it.

Once 2023 rolled around I was still tired & uninspired.

It was a slow unraveling to come back to working with clients, sharing online again and being this vulnerable incubated version of myself.

It’s been a couple of years since the ‘involuntary retirement’ and ALL of it makes sense now.

At the time, as I burnt through my savings that I “wasn’t replenishing” I was constantly anxious as it was so AGAINST everything I’d been taught and believed up until that point.

Key lesson: security comes from within me through self love, discernment and doing what feels best for me and the future version of me.

Old conditioning: keep working and investing as much and as hard as you can because that’s how you create security and safety. Wrong.

It’s now a blend of the two.

If you’re going through a burn it to the ground or burnout cycle, I see you gf ❤️

Also, FYI - Sunday, 15th June @ 11:59pm NZT enrolments for our Messy Action Skool Community clooooose for 2025.

If you want to spend the next 6 months connecting, replenishing, recovering & reinstating creative inspiration within a nourishing group of women - you know what to do.

Book a call with me or reply to this email

Here’s to…

Brooke’s website: https://brookenolly.com/

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