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I am writing this from the Air France Lounge at JFK šŸ›«

I’m 33 with no husband or child in sight. I don’t even have a house anymore, lol.

I am writing this from the Air France lounge at JFK. 

It’s 2025. 

I made my 2018 dreams come true. 

It is better than I could have even imagined back then. 

I was making a matcha because I want to stay awake for the next 7 hours šŸ’€ and responding to my social media manager about some content she was going to schedule. 

It dawned on me that I became her. 

I became the digital nomad coach that can sustain herself financially through her art

I started with no idea what I was doing. 

It came to me, one messy action at a time

Unbeknown to me, I made a pact with myself in Nov 2017; no side hustling, no part time jobs, just all in energy. 

When you have all in energy, there’s no choice but to make it work.   

I have accomplished above and beyond what I knew was possible in early 2018. 

I have turned myself inside out and upside down with stress, too. 

Chronic conditions, autoimmune, mast cell activation, mould poisoning, allergies, gut issues, concussions - you name it, I’ve likely experienced it. 

I am not advocating for my way. 

At all. 

I have a history of complex trauma and abuse which ironically has meant I’ve been able to endure a lot more than most and have therefore been able to live very differently, to most. 

Who knew growing up with such volatility and violence would have at least a partial silver lining.

I also grew up with immense financial privilege and I don’t take that for granted, either.

The reason I am sharing this note is I ultimately…

did it my way. 

I used what I had and went all in with what I knew. 

I had no idea how it would come about. 

I had no idea if I would be able to sustain it. 

I just did whatever it took, every single day, to keep it alive

Sometimes those days were crying on the couch because I didn’t know how I’d pay rent. 

Sometimes those nights looked like chronic nightmares of abuse and memories flooding me. 

Sometimes those days looked like creative flow and ridiculous productivity. 

Sometimes those months looked like avoidance, overwhelm and brain fog. 

Sometimes those days, months and even years looked like tears, walks, sun in eyeballs and one foot in front of the other. 

I am so proud of myself. 

Not for the achievements as much as…

Simply, doing it my way. 

I’m 33 with no husband or child in sight. 

I don’t even have a house anymore, lol. 

It’s what feels right, for me, right now. 

It’s my way

Journal Prompts

  1. If you were to do life, your way, what would you change? 

  1. What would you leave behind and go all in on? 

  1. Who would you be? 

  1. What would you do? 

I hope you give yourself permission to be messy and do it anyway because someday, you too might be in the Air France lounge at JFK thinking, I did it, I did what 2018 me came here to do. 

P.S. - I am in the Air France Lounge at JFK because of AMEX Platinum. When you have this card, you get what’s called Priority Pass and it gives you lounge access all over the world. I fly economy 90% of the time. I could be flying EasyJet, Transavia, NORSE, FrenchBee (all cheap airlines) and still use Priorty Pass lounges. I wanted to throw this in here because it’s a great travel hack. You’re welcome 😌

I also wanna share what I’d tell my less experienced self so she could have ā€˜maybe’ avoided such chronic stress and numerous health ailments.

Trust yourself.

Trust it’s all happening for your highest good.

Trust that anxiety is actually an invitation to let your guard down, surrender and cry.

Trust that you know what’s best for your life.

Ask for help. Let yourself receive it.

Trust that you know what’s best for your energy.

Trust in the timing of it all.

Trust you’ll get there, patience is your best friend in times of turmoil.

Last but not least… have fun because your dreams come true either way, the journey may as well be worth it.

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Here’s to…

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