Are you not listening to what you already know?

This term has been on my mind a lot lately.

For myself and for the clients I’ve been working with.

We get what we tolerate.

Friends.

Clients.

Family members.

Work situations.

Also, it leads into the age old question: “What do I actually want?”

Our brain, ego, voldemort, v-man is really good at convincing us we maybe, might want something.

Or maybe this person, thing, situation or dynamic isn’t so bad…

This is a fast-track way to losing self trust. Not listening to what you already know.

I signed a land deal in 2021 that I don’t want.

I didn’t really want it then, I did it because the noise around me was telling me I’d miss the boat and never get back into the property market having sold my other place earlier in the year. I was about to flee to LA and I signed the dotted line with little thought.

It was a decision based on…

Scarcity.

Urgency.

and I really didn’t look out for the future version of me. I had no idea I’d have childhood memories of abuse surface that deemed me unable to work/function as I was used to.

I had no idea I’d have adverse vaccine reactions and that the pandemic oppression would affect me so much.

I could also lose $44k+ from this deal and let me tell you something.

I don’t care.

I made peace with that long ago.

If not abandoning myself is going to cost $44k this time around, I’m ok with it.

I spent my whole life abandoning myself, people pleasing and listening to what others needed or wanted from me.

I’m not available to be out of integrity with myself, with my heart, with what I want because I committed to something 2 years ago that is no longer relevant.

And we all know…

Scarcity sucks.

Fear sucks.

If this deal were to go ahead, I’d be paying ridiculous interest on this land.

As an entrepreneur it’s not the easiest thing in the world to get mortgages with banks…

The system isn’t rigged in our favour 😂

It’s not about the interest or the land, it’s about what I actually want.

If I want something, I will move the earth to make it happen. Literally.

I know you’re the same.

If I don’t want something, my ego will try and convince me I maybe might want it.

Yet ultimately, when I tune into my heart around what I actually want vs what I am tolerating

It once again boils down to my previous email, who are you feeding?

Harry or Voldemort?

Faith or Fear?

Our ego can be very convincing. It can lead us on a very wild goose chase, only to wind up learning the same lesson we’ve learned time again.

Listen to what you want.

Your intuition knows.

Your vision knows.

The universe will NOT lie to you.

So…

In this moment, what are you tolerating?

That your intuition knows is not for you, that your soul knows isn’t in your future.

That your heart of hearts knows will not eventuate into what everyone is telling you it will?

I’m curious to know whether this landed for you.

All my love

Here’s to…